Luthando Shosha, famously known as Lootlove is set on making this year a very good one despite the major loss she suffered. The TV presenter had announced that she has lost her younger brother Lukhanyo a month ago.

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The presenter has been trying to deal with the loss of her brother and for a very long time she has been allowing herself to grieve. Now sis has decided to bounce back and show 2020 the middle finger.

“One thing about me: This year won’t knock me, I’m going to live my best! This zap sign though is for all y’all moving weird. Otherwise,” she captioned her post.The doting mother of two has described 2020 as being the worst year of her life. Something many can relate to however the loss of her brother cut really deep. In a very deep social media post she dragged 2020 for showing her flames which also saw the end of her relationship with Reason, a rapper and the father of her children, “The worst year of my life started off with a break-up,” she started off her post.

“…now I lose you. Kanti uThixo undifuna Ntoni? Uthi mandithini? Ndingotheni mna? (What is it that God wants? What must I do?) How am I going to raise these girls when my heart has been turned to stone? What must I do now? What kind of God is this that makes me feel this much pain and sorrow? And now I’m meant to do what? continue with life and see joy when I’m walking with a gaping hole and void I can never fill? What is the point? Oh, also in all this “Have faith” they say, “God will never forsake you”… he has. He has. He took my whole life… he took my joy… he took everything that made sense…Please stop telling me to be strong or telling me about God.” she wrote on Instagram

Loot then posted another snap of her and her bonding and sharing smiles, she coupled it with a heartfelt message on her Instagram trying to come to terms with the fact that her sibling is really gone.

“Into the next lifetime and every single one that follows after that. My soul will always search for you, find you and ride with you. I can’t wait till we meet again, and please next time… let’s make a deal: Promise not to leave before me. #ForeverFrequency”